ED MENTION PAST THIS POINT

i watched emesis blue and i was never the same person afterwards. welcome to my deranged brain

a newer addition to my boyfriend harem (i say that jokingly, i love my boys equally) but certainly a welcome one... medic (formally known as ludwig) is your typical mentally unstable (ex) doctor. i love him but simultaneously i am afraid he will harvest my organs. my ideal man!!

not even gonna lie though... bro could definitely strap me down to that operating table. i have absolutely no shame to speak of.

his character (what little we know about him) highly intrigues me. i estimate that he's in his 40's, hailing from stuttgard in germany. he has an affinity for practicing highly illegal medicine and also committing war crimes like every other class. he has a few doves, the most notable being archimedes. i love archimedes.

i LOVEEEE this man's accent. usually people go for more "romantic" accents like french or spanish, but i absolutely love german accents. if he called me "mein schatz" i think i would disintegrate into one billion particles...

i wanna cuddle him and listen to him ramble about his experiments and discoveries. i would cherish that experience for the rest of my days. in fact, i had a dream a few days about about cuddling with him, spy, and scout. it was amazing ;w; i miss them so much.

our official anniversary is 10-22-24! i am very fortunate to have discovered him. i think medic entered my life at just the right moment. i've been struggling with a restrictive ED and he motivates me to get better. it's strange, i know, but it's helped a lot.

his insanity rivals my own in a way. i experience very intense psychosis and delusions occasionally but, ironically, he makes me feel more sane. i feel like he could fix me maybe. or make me worse. either way, what bliss.

headcanons:

blood kink (obviously,) bondage (bonus points if it's on his operating table,) corruption/degradation, doing stuff under the desk, expect bruises and bite marks which he will take care of post-coitus with the medigun

extremely sadistic but has a slight masochistic side. might let you peg if you ask nicely (he likes it argue with the wall)

very touchy-feely, loves to be cuddled and will come up from behind you and rest his head on your shoulder, typically when you're trying to focus on something

has a jealous streak; secretly hates seeing you get along with the other mercs. you're his pet, after all

dirty talking in his native language guaranteed

got any enemies? exes that have treated you like shit? he's harvesting their organs

here's some gifs and art that i've found of him while browsing. enjoy! or don't. i'm not your mom.